This morning I woke up with heaviness on my heart and tears in my eyes. I don’t know why some days I can be full of glee and energy and then some days not feel like I have an ounce of motivation. There are many things going on with my emotions today and I see myself letting anger take place over joy. I’m taking it out on my kids, my students, my husband, and worst of all, God. I actually “got onto” Him today about a situation that I don’t understand why He is not resolving. This situation has nothing to do with me but a dear friend that is suffering. But, in seeing her suffering, I was reminded of my own and it made me mad all over again. I don’t live with this anger but it does resurface every once and a while. And when it does, it is really hard to dig its claws out of my flesh.
Dear God,
My foot is slipping. I feel myself sliding into a pit of muck and mire and that is not where I want to be. It is not where You want me to be. I know Your love will keep me out of that awful place. I know that when my emotions start to go haywire that You will bring me joy. I will come to Your words when I’m feeling myself falling. I will let them fill me with Your Spirit so that I can feel Your presence surround me. Thank You, God, for taking care of me. Thank You for showing me that You make all things good. I can trust in You.
In Jesus’s name I come to You,
Amen
Fighting Fire with Light 