My Weakness

2 Corinthians 12:1-10

“But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 12:9-10

Is it okay to be broken?  The fact that I feel so much weaker now than I ever have has caused me to question my response to all that has happened.  If I am weak, can I still show God’s power? If I am weak, can others still see the love of Jesus in me? If I am weak, can the peace that passes all understanding still be seen in me?  These verses above answer with a resounding, “YES!”

I have always been a very strong-willed, independent person (just ask my parents, my husband, my kids, my co-workers,…) but, since the accident, my brain has been taken over by grief and it has debilitated my thought processes.  Small things that I used to proclaim dominance over can now make me crumble. Day-to-day problems that I used to handle with ease can now cause me to break out in a cold sweat. I have never felt this weak and yet I have never felt so much strength.  

That is what these verses teach me.  The fact that I used to be proud of my strength was something that kept me from understanding God’s power.  But now in my weakness, I have to reach out to God to sustain me and I am finding more power than I ever had before.  

So many people have told me how strong I am.  But it’s not me, it is God. I realize that and it humbles me while making me feel 10 feet tall.  Yes, I am weak. I can’t deal with things the way that I used to be able to. But, PRAISE GOD! Because now I have His power to sustain me and I will not rely on my own.  I will delight in my weakness so that His power may rest on me!