November 30, 2017
I feel like I’ve been going backwards. I’ve been listening to the world that is telling me I must be sad because I have to get through this holiday without people that I love. I’ve started focusing on the fact that we won’t be eating Delores’s incredible cooking, we won’t get to watch Delmer’s eyes light up as he passes out the gifts one by one, we won’t get to see Keren’s sweet excitement over everything that sparkles and shines. And I’ve been spiraling downward. So much so that last night I fell apart and didn’t think I would be able to pull myself back together. But, then, God…
God brought peace yet again to my heart.
I bought these ornaments after Christmas last year and have been waiting all year to get my tree focused on what matters. I’ve never had a tree like this before. I’ve always tried to make them whimsical and magical but this year it proclaims the TRUTH and I’ve never needed it more in my life! This is what I need to be focused on. This is where my heart and soul need to be – grounded in the promise of eternal life with my Creator, the One who makes me perfect because He is my Savior.
I know it’s ok for me to be sad and to miss them, but it’s not ok to let it destroy me this holiday season. I’m writing this, as a testimony to myself, to help me remember Whose I am and what He has done for me.
I have HOPE and PEACE and COMFORT and JOY! May all of you who are hurting and sad feel God’s arms wrapped around you in a warm embrace reminding you that He will carry you through. Merry Christmas!
Fighting Fire with Light 